I write articles all the time in my head, witty, insightful, wise articles. But I never get to the point of sticking them into the glue of typeface.
Admittedly being the single mom of a teenage boy is for the busy to be making.
sigh
I’m pretty sure what I need is a master computer – internet research publishing – software that I can almost visualize but not quite. Evernote is on it’s way.
There is so much software to stay up to date on. so many changes in the computer world. That’s what I do for a living. Macintosh computer consulting. I spend so much of my time with information pouring into my eyes I’m not even sure what I know anymore.
The day of the computer nerd starts like this, after boy is out door, second cup of coffee, facebook, using SocialFixer – which I keep gushing about cause I LOVE IT – sort through postings, closing some off, saving some for later, in another window run whatever current game I’m playing – which is research for the game software i’m struggling to develop – and then load the Daily Reading RSS in Safari for all the recent feeds from a few of the macintosh and tech sites i track for fixes, rumors, announcements, geekery.
Also have checked my mail, junked the spam that gets through, check the junk folder to try and catch any mistakes, and after about an hour of all that my friend/support system video chats me and we discuss what’s in the email, what needs to be done, what’s going on in life, teenage boys: their lives and issues, and let’s “take on that day!”
Then I do the calls, email replies I haven’t gotten too yet, specific research for client’s issues and finally get my ass in gear, get ready and leave the house for whatever outside appointments i may have that day.
Of course I have an iPhone so I’m routinely checking my email, if bored online hitting some quick facebook, Flipboard and Zite engaged with an over the top amount of tech sites and news and things. If I’m at a clients online watching software install or waiting for a start up to finish I’ll jump on Pinterest adn Twitter, cmmd click on links to open in new tabs, click through in a quick peruse of interesting information. I’ve never concentrated on socializing my marketing to create a buzz about my consulting services. Mostly because i’ve been busy. But it’s time. Again, it’s part of what I’m selling. I do websites too, more of a dirty modification tech but I’ll also build from scratch, and at this point there is no reason to be on the net if you are not tied into all the main sites that stream information around. At least if you want the attention for you site. (I’m keeping this one on a sorta down low for now, wanting pressure free space for word experiments and silliness.)
Alot of this is about keeping up on what’s new. That’s my job. And it is relentless. And fast. And constant. The next new thing is always here and I am expected to know it intimately.
I do my best.
so in and among all that I want to keep this personal blog:)
I’ve also started writing a book.
I try to clean my home.
Dinners, Lunches, Breakfasts.
I’m also still trying to figure out how to keep performing. I have shows in my head I have to put on hold. and occasionally I go out, hang out with friends and relax.
So yeah, that’s why I want a program that would help me stream all the thoughts, the information, the writing, the projects and make it easier to link info to writing to page to you.
and once that happens…
I have found the Old Movie channel and 7:30am repeats of Cash Cab. I no long semi-regret the $40 bucks i spent on an antenna. A WOMAN JUST GOT GORED BY A BULL IN OLD TIMEY MOVIE AND IT HAD A REASON TO BE THERE! Sepia toned men having a brawl in the dirt, awkward punches like in real life.
mmmm… old timey escapism…
Once the city moved to digital antenna tv airwaves I lost general-everybody-watches-this-crap tv programming. Like The Voice.
I have it back now:) A brand new tv, my reward to us for having an uptick and also ’cause it was about time we were able to really see the video games. So I researched, and sent the boy to the store, and he compared images in research, and we found the cheapest tv with the best look we could, and then found it on sale, and now we have our ginormous 23″ flat panel tv with digital tuner and antenna.
I am remember many things about tv as I sit transfixed in it’s constant glow. Like how bad it is. I’ve been picking and choosing my input from the internet and hulu and netflix. I have applications that are my news inputs and the only commercials that existed in my life were the few scattered and repetative in the hulu viewing. And wow, commercials are bad and constant and…undescribable how they keep me from simply stopping video to go do something. I mean i go and ignore, they are commercials, but before I would pause the video and have some peace and quiet. I hadn’t realized how nice that is.
I’m remembering how I’m excellent and Wheel of Fortune, figured out the final puzzle with only the letter E at the end showing.
I am no longer any good at Jeopardy at all. Not one bit.
I have no idea who the celebrity judges are on any of the reality shows.
Yet I sit here, computer in lap, tv ahead, strangely soothed by my jump back into the regular people stuff. Disliking the experience in general, but having grown up with the television always on somehow the emotions of the regular schedule and the same crap 2 -3 years later is simply the finishing touch to the feel of home.
I have to go, The Wheel is on. I’m good at this one. Oh yeah, it was HIGH FIVE. cheers!
It is starting to get fun. I don’t know how other writers work but I find I have to sit and just write before my brain will start manufacturing the actual happenings of the story. I spelled out for a friend the other day the five or six different things that this book is connecting together for me, and it sounded smart and cool and today I sat down to keep pounding out, decide if it could really happen, what are the details?
It’s crazy and I don’t want to tell too much about the actual book and story because I think it will change a lot before it’s final form, i’m really reaching for some vast storytelling with this that I’m not sure I’m actually up too it. But hell, maybe if the stories are lame and derivitive, wildly full of false understanding and poor fact checking, maybe at least the idea will get to somebody. Whatever. I’m writing it. Giving it a try. And today I have the first scene of main characters meeting, the story begining to be revealed. Where you decide if you want to keep reading or not. Where I need names. Where I need to know what someone looks like, sounds like, comes from, reason to be there, neighborhood, location, point, story…
I never start with any of that really. I mean I have the hero of the story done but the sidekicks are shadows and the actual story is not so much. like putting legos together, ok, need a bad guy, who would that be, what happens here, is this the bad guy? Names, how obvious…hmm, really is that what you think this guy is? hmmmm….
Puzzle the story together, Constantly asking, “what happens next?” until a gesture is chosen, which leads to a thought, which leads to a reason, which leads to a moment which leads to one whole minute of typing. and back to thinking. next brick in the pile please. What happens next?
i’ve been sharing things about my life on the internet forever. like really, I remember a whole 10 years ago when they invented the word blog. i learned html to put my life up on a compuserve webpage.
Blogspot was genius.
there is something for me about putting my internal thoughts out for human consumption, that is good to me.
So tonight I’m sitting on my couch after early to bed led to a super early to rise of 2am. watchign hulu, feeling restless, verbal sparring on facebook and now pecking at my two blogs, one business and here.
I have ideas, i have the first few pages and a lot of things filled in on a book that i’ve been wanting to write for a while. I’ve started but the finish…sigh, the keep going, the need to focus. Not always easy. need to make money. need to pay rent, have to put out a right adn tight article all experty in my biz niche. do some adverting maybe.
An old idea for a magazine keeps nagging me.
an idea for company and game i haven’t given up but going at it from a different direction now.
getting torn between what I need to concentrate on. Organizing the different areas of expression into priorities.
i think it’s clear by now this blog is the free form journalling clearing house of what I think and like and lots of photos and who the fuck knows what will show up here or what I’ll end up talking about. like a good blog should.
occasionally I can get everything stowed away for a moment. this time I got proof. (you’re not really suppose to click on the photos. They are uploading ginormous and I haven’t gotten around to figuring it out yet. sorry.)
I walk around new york city more than anyone I know. I have appointments and meetings and things to do in all the different boroughs, always at least two a day, often 3. Bouroughs that I am in at some point for something is what I’m counting here. Ok now pictures.
The trees declined an interview and would not allow photographs. The exhibition is a total show off.
that’s it baby, show off those leaves, give it too me, where’s that light, that sexy sexy light, oh yeah plant baby oh yeah
So in beginning to play with this page I would like to share this, my favorite image of me ever in the world created by an incredible artist – Captain Scorpio. Click me and check him out. (pssst, scroll down)
